Putter's.

I'm so sick of being tired.
I'm so tired of being sick.
I'm so sick of being bored.
I'm so tired of isolating myself.
I'm so sick of people.
I'm so tired of being awake.
I'm so sick of things not going as planned.
I'm so tired of complaining.
I'm so sick that there is no change.
I'm so tired of work.
I'm so sick of my attitude.
I'm so tired & sick.

Fuck.

Nothing ever goes as planned..

So I gave up the house I was going to buy
so that I could have the house my grand parents
own, that I have been begging them for for years.

Well after that house failed the inspection 4 times,
and the original house already sold, I just rented
a new place with Jillian.

Tawnya and I aren't friends anymore..
I really don't want to get into it, just conflict
of interests you could say..

The place is nice, and Shady is welcome, and
has a huge yard to herself. But I'm still uneasy on
the whole situation. I'm sick of renting, and now
I have to wait until at least June to buy a house.

I really don't know how much longer I can hold
out with the way things are.
Nothing bad is really happening...
But I am just not happy with anything.
I'm so stressed it's unreal, but I can't even
deal with it. I'm beyond the point of even being
able to get angry or emotional.

I'm just here.
Frittering away this pointless existing
hoping for some wonderful opportunity to come
find me, because I am sick of looking.