Walking contradiction

I've completely fallen off the face of the earth,

I don't even know where I am.

I wake up early, to do nothing.

I'm bored but I never answer my phone.

I want to do something but i constantly skip out on plans.

I'm in a rut but I can't understand why.
Nothing is really that bad ...

I'm still better off than most people.

What the fuck is my problem?

This just isn't where I wanted to be..

But where do I even want to be anymore?